On Friday the 1st April, I face the end of my second year without my son. Do I dread what I have to face on that day, not anymore. I will wait to see what the day unfolds, if it brings joy I will rejoice, if it brings sadness than I will cry. But, I will also remember on that day two years ago I thought my world had ended and today I realize it didn't end it just changed and I followed a different path from the live I lead before. Matthew I miss you ever single day of my life. Not one day passes when my thoughts enter that space in my heart where now you stay. I know we will meet again and when we do I will embrace you with years of love that I have never been able to give, because you are not here. You have missed so much, although I know you watch us from afar, it’s not the same. How proud you would have been at what as a family we have achieve and now far we have come since your loss. I wish you had been here to be apart of it all, but, that was never to be. It was your time to leave us and I think we all understand that now. Our pain still hurts, we grieve, cry and relive memories so many times to bring comfort. If only I’d known you were to leave us so soon, I would of made more memories inside, ones that I could live by day to day. Look for the lights on Friday night, for if you follow them to the end you will see us, watching for you. Love Mum